'Honey, I Can't See Straight Again'
2nd of 2 zines created for my VCE studies.
'Honey' depicts the intoxicated eye paired with anonymous quotes heard during nights out. I turned 18 in 2015 & it was my final year of high school. The roller coaster of emotions, stress & anxiety mixed with a tight bond of our year level made for nights out that will never be forgotten, for better or for worse.
A postcard from depression
"My actions the last few nights have been that of embarrassment...no regret but I can't keep repeating this cycle. I have to accept it"
"Man, last night I snuck out of the house. I was feeling depressed, more than I had in a while. It wasn't just my mental state that was low, I wanted to hurt myself. I put my headphones in & went for a walk, it was quiet & no one was around. The thought of death loomed on my mind but the devil was not strong enough to persuade me into joining him. I sat down in a park & tilted my head back & stared up at the stars. It brought me to a complete calm. The evil thoughts were gone. The next night I went for another walk & looked up at the sky, it was so cloudy I couldn't see a single star. I thought to myself if the feelings running through my head last night were as vivid tonight, would my actions had lead me down a devilish path?"
"But in the end the most important thing to accept is that no matter how you feel, how painful it may be, with the help of those around you, you'll get through this too"
"I FUCKING...fucking...loved her man. I changed who I was for her, but it wasn't good enough, she found someone better"
"Also remember that to be sad you have to have first been happy. I keep forgetting that"
"What can I say mate, I've got nothing to complain about, other people just look for all the bad things in life"